I recently returned to work after my third maternity leave. Despite the fact I’m in my busiest season of life, my return was the best yet. Perhaps it was because I am used to it, or maybe because my new boss was so welcoming, or the fact I was only working twice a week and without the need for daycare. Regardless, although the transition was smooth, something wasn’t right…I didn’t have a peace in my spirit.
I am a natural-born worker. I thrive on challenges and love to keep busy. Blessed with a great job and flexible hours that accommodate my four wee ones and my husband’s intense work schedule, I was managing being a working mom just fine. So when I felt God nudge me to quit my job, I wasn’t the least bit interested.
I wasn’t always on board with God’s plans but over time I’ve developed instant obedience. I have experienced His way enough to know that His plans are always better than my own! But this time was different. This time I struggled to obey. Quit my job I’m happy at? Give up working only two days per week? Walk away from the industry I know so well? I couldn’t do it.
It weighed on my mind and I knew in my heart God had other callings on my life. I love being home with my kids but giving up my job meant giving up control and trusting God’s will for my life while letting go of my own. I wanted to do it all: Raise my four beautiful babies, be a wonderful wife to my husband, a leader in ministry, attend school and work part-time. It wasn’t until I was praying for balance that I realized just how right He was. If you want balance, give up your job.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.“ (Proverbs 3:5-6)
Okay, I surrender. ‘Not my will, but yours be done’ (Luke 22:42). I trust in you Lord. You never fail me. Your way is always best and I know you have great things in store for me as you have proven this time and time again.
“But even more blessed are all who hear the word of God and put it into practice.” (Luke 11:28)
I quit my job this week and it felt incredible! I am blessed to be able to stay at home with my children during this season of life. They are growing and changing so fast and I am grateful I get to experience it every step of the way. I truly cherish this time and feel called to be the best stay-at-home-mom I can to them. I am excited for school assemblies, classroom volunteering and field trips!
After I quit my job I had a beautiful peace in my spirit. I feel perfectly aligned with God. While my children were outside sketching designs with their colourful chalk, I saw them with different eyes…I appreciated that moment immensely and knew I was exactly where I am meant to be.